New Year’s Eve

Just a quickie today. (Okay, are you done snickering? Good. Now get your mind out of the gutter and let’s continue.) I’ll be back soon with my annual (highly anticipated) list of the best and worst films of the year, but I have about 6 more I want to see before I can close out the year 2009. Today, though, I’m going to do something I never do, mostly because it usually irritates me when others do it, but it seems appropriate. I’m simply going to post the lyrics to a song which, not surprisingly, was on my mind last night, and which I feel has particular relevance this year. It’s kind of obscure, but well worth seeking out to listen to.

New Year’s Eve
Five Iron Frenzy 

It's New Years Eve and I'm full of empty promises,
I half pretend to keep this time, just like last year.
The band is loud and I'm wandering the shadows,
wishing I was never here.
I persevere.
A crowded room, these whitewashed tombs,
they raise their glasses high, they kiss the past goodbye.

This New Years Eve, I'm waiting for tomorrow.
My heart is on my sleeve,
and yes I still believe, this New Years Eve,
will turn out better than before,
I'm holding on, still holding out,
until they close the door... on me.

It's New Years Eve and I feel my insecurities,
are haunting me like ghosts, this sinking quicksand.
And then with thunderous praise and lofty adoration,
a second passes by, yet nothing changes.
I hate my skin, this grave I'm standing in.
Another change of years, and I wish I wasn't here.

A year goes by and I'm staring at my watch again,
and I dig deep this time,
for something greater than I've ever been,
life to ancient wineskins.
And I was blind but now I see.

This New Years Eve, something must change me inside,
I'm crooked and misguided, and tired of being tired.
This New Years Eve, I'm waiting for tomorrow.
My heart is on my sleeve, and yes I still believe, in You.

Sleep well,

DTE
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Songs of the moment:
Miss Li – Bourgeois Shangri-La; Tegan & Sara – Call It Off; Matthew Good – Last Parade

Music while I wrote:
Yeah Yeah Yeahs – It’s Blitz